Spiritual Trauma: The Wound No One Talks About
You were told God is love — but what you experienced didn’t feel like love.
You were told Jesus died for your sins — but all you felt was shame.
You were told you were born broken, sinful, and in need of saving — but your soul knew better.
That disconnect? That ache? That’s spiritual trauma.
Spiritual trauma isn’t always obvious. It hides in the nervous system. It burrows into your sense of self. It shows up as unworthiness, fear of being wrong or punished, resistance to trust or surrender.
It’s time to name it.
And it’s time to heal it.
🔥 What Is Spiritual Trauma?
Spiritual trauma happens when the very place you were told to seek love, truth, and safety becomes a source of fear, shame, or confusion. It’s the betrayal of the soul’s deepest longing — a longing for God, for belonging, for meaning.
It can result from:
Being told you were born sinful
Hearing about hell before you could understand metaphor
Experiencing religious control, dogma, or manipulation
Being spiritually bypassed or shamed for your feelings
Witnessing hypocrisy, abuse, or exclusion in sacred spaces
Not being believed by spiritual leaders or institutions when harm is happening
Sometimes the deepest betrayal is when someone tries to speak up — to protect a child, to name a wrong, to say something doesn’t feel right — and is silenced or dismissed in the name of “faith,” “forgiveness,” or “God’s will.”
Like the father whose sons were sexually abused and who was told by the church, “Innocent until proven guilty.”
Technically true. But spiritually? A devastating dismissal of a parent trying to protect his children — in the one place he should have been supported.
This, too, is spiritual trauma.
And it must be named.
💔 What Spiritual Trauma Might Sound Like Inside Your Head
“What if I go to hell?”
“Why do I feel so guilty when I try to leave the church?”
“How can I trust God when the people who claimed to speak for Him have caused so much harm?”
“I love Jesus… but I hate what was done in His name.”
“Am I being deceived?”
“Why does healing feel like betrayal?”
“What if I’m leading others astray by walking away?”
“If I stop going to church, am I abandoning God?”
“If I’m born a sinner, what hope is there for me?”
“Why is God so angry?”
“If Jesus died for my sins… why do I still feel unworthy?”
“I never asked Him to die for me.”
“If I can’t trust the church, how can I trust God?”
“What if I’ve been lied to… my whole life?”
“How can I find God without someone telling me how?”
“What if I’m wrong and I really do go to hell?”
“Why do I still feel afraid, even after I’ve left?”
“Do I have a right to question any of this?”
“If God is love, why do I feel so much fear?”
“Maybe I am bad… maybe I am broken.”
“If they were wrong, then who is right?”
“Why did I believe them?”
“How can I come back to God now?”
“What if there’s no God at all?”
“How can I love Jesus and not be part of that system?”
“Why does it feel like I’m being threatened with hell?”
📖 My Story
I was raised in the church. I loved Jesus with my whole heart. But I also believed I was going to hell. I walked away not because I stopped loving Him — but because the shame, the unworthiness, the illusion became too loud to ignore. And when I found my way back to truth, I found Jesus was still right there, waiting.
Spiritual reclamation is tender territory. You don’t have to walk it alone.
Whether you're freshly disentangling from religious conditioning or deep in a reckoning you never saw coming, I offer grounded, compassionate support rooted in truth, sovereignty, and soul integrity.
Here’s how we can work together:
✨ 1:1 Work
Private sessions and immersive containers for healing spiritual trauma, restoring inner trust, and reconnecting with the sacred — on your terms.
This is about reclamation, not repair. Liberation, not loyalty to a broken system.
📚 Suggested Reading
Start with these essential pieces to help name and navigate what’s rising:
(More coming soon — these are just the beginning.)
💻 Digital Offerings
Accessible tools and teachings to help you reorient to truth, regulate your system, and reclaim your connection to the Divine.
Think of these as sacred breadcrumbs on your path.
🔥 Upcoming Ceremonies + Journeys
In-person gatherings and guided spaces for remembrance, release, and reconnection.
Ceremony speaks where words fall short.
If you’re in this reckoning, I see you.
If you’re trying to hold your love for Jesus while grieving the damage done in His name — I’ve been there.
And I’m here to walk beside you.